Fix two more typos

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Nathan Fisher 2023-06-01 09:18:08 -04:00
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I used to stim a lot as a child. I almost forgot how I used to do it until I thought about it later. I had certain sounds I would make that were soothing, certain phrases I'd repeat. My hands were in motion a lot. Those sorts of things brought the bad kind of attention from adults. In the fourth grade I joined the school orchestra, playing Violin. There was a girl in the orchestra with me who had a habit of picking at the skin on her fingertips whenever she had a hangnail or a loose piece of skin (as inevitably occurs a lot as a side effect of playing a stringed instrument, even after heavy callouses form). I tried it, and it filled that need to have my body do something when I was overstimulated or nervous. As crazy is it sounds (and is) I still have this self destructive habit today. The fact is that it filled that need without bringing unwanted attention from adults for being "weird".
I have two older brothers. None of us have exactly fit well into society. My oldest brother has probably had the most difficulty, and I'm 100% convinced that he is neurodivergent. My other brother, Tim, is a different case altogether. Tim wen to drug rehab for the first time at 13 years old, then again at 17. As he settled into adulthood alcohol became his drug of choice. Now, Tim seems for all the world to be an amazingly outgoing and friendly person who has 100 fast friends within hours of landing in a new place. While I hated the cloud that existed for so many years which kept us from being able to communicate on a deeper level, I always knew that he was an incredibly giving person.
I have two older brothers. None of us have exactly fit well into society. My oldest brother has probably had the most difficulty, and I'm 100% convinced that he is neurodivergent. My other brother, Tim, is a different case altogether. Tim went to drug rehab for the first time at 13 years old, then again at 17. As he settled into adulthood alcohol became his drug of choice. Now, Tim seems for all the world to be an amazingly outgoing and friendly person who has 100 fast friends within hours of landing in a new place. While I hated the cloud that existed for so many years which kept us from being able to communicate on a deeper level, I always knew that he was an incredibly giving person.
Fast forward to shortly after the time in my life when I was coming to terms with being Autistic myself. Tim was fairly newly sober (and a number of years down he still is today, thankfully). We were talking on the phone, really talking for what seemed like the fist time since childhood. I wanted to tell him that I finally understood this thing about who I am that has been such a huge factor in my life. I began to tell him about the diagnosis, and how much more sense my life made after. He was quiet, for a log time. So long that I thought the call dropped. When he did reply he dropped a bit of a bomb. Tim is not the hyper confident social person that he always seemed to be. He has crippling social anxiety. So much so that in order to appear normal he has always overcompensated, and alcohol was the crutch that enabled him to get through all of those painful interactions over the years. And the crazy thing is that he had been wondering recently if he might be Autistic. Now, I don't know if he is or not, but I do know what it's like to mask constantly every day, and how exhausting that is. He may well be on the spectrum. I just never considered it as possible to present in those ways until we had that heart to heart.
Fast forward to shortly after the time in my life when I was coming to terms with being Autistic myself. Tim was fairly newly sober (and a number of years down he still is today, thankfully). We were talking on the phone, really talking for what seemed like the fist time since childhood. I wanted to tell him that I finally understood this thing about who I am that has been such a huge factor in my life. I began to tell him about the diagnosis, and how much more sense my life made after. He was quiet, for a long time. So long that I thought the call dropped. When he did reply he dropped a bit of a bomb. Tim is not the hyper confident social person that he always seemed to be. He has crippling social anxiety. So much so that in order to appear normal he has always overcompensated, and alcohol was the crutch that enabled him to get through all of those painful interactions over the years. And the crazy thing is that he had been wondering recently if he might be Autistic. Now, I don't know if he is or not, but I do know what it's like to mask constantly every day, and how exhausting that is. He may well be on the spectrum. I just never considered it as possible to present in those ways until we had that heart to heart.
## I am NOT disabled
I want to share an article from someone pretty well known in the software world, Jonathan Turner. They've got a pretty huge YouTube following, were the original author of the Rust Language Server, led the TypeScript project and were until a few days ago on the Rust Core Team. They are also Autistic and Non-Binary, and as this blog post explains it's difficult to separate cause and effect between the two.